I don’t know why

I don’t know why.. but somehow.. the thoughts come out on my mind..continuously

worries.. dreams.. hopes..

I feel nervous..  This year would be my one last chance to find the way of my own dream to be presented. At least I feel like this is my last chance of startline on the race to the future that I have imagined about.

But the thing makes me sad is I can’t see the silver lining 

I can’t find the way to get there.

And still I don’t know how to get there. 

Everything is vague, doubtful..

Now the thoughts make me start to feel like being chased by my thoughts, urges… 

I don’t want to lose my pace.. but at the same time the situation makes me feel I might be slow and monotonous.. I could be late..